Book Releases

COLLISION DAMAGE – M/M Trans Romance – Coming October 16, 2021

I’m releasing a novella titled COLLISION DAMAGE on October 16, 2021.

Real quick I just want to say that 2021 has been a hell of a year. I put out four books that I’m mostly proud of. I’ve started writing erotic shorts that are fun and scratch the “put something out now!” itch. I’ve made some amazing writer friends via Twitter, who are all extremely talented and wonderful. As this year begins to wind down, I’m thinking a lot about the future and what kind of work I want to put into the world.

This year I also came out as trans. And because of that, I want to write as many trans masc characters as I can fucking stand. There are some beautiful and challenging stories out there featuring trans masc characters and I want nothing more than to add to that number. I’ve also seen a good bit of chatter about how trans characters should be allowed to be messy, not a monolith or a “good example,” and that struck a chord with me.

So bearing that in mind, I wrote COLLISION DAMAGE. It’s a story about some messy nerds making questionable decisions, some that readers may not agree with on a practical level. That’s fine. Life is full of stupid decisions, but I adore the magic that happens when things work out. Finding love and acceptance despite our faults is the pinnacle of romance to me.


About COLLISION DAMAGE:

Jonas would probably have more going for him if he had more than a high school GED and didn’t have to work two jobs. He spends his off days alone or at his friend Nicky’s, drinking beer and occasionally playing board games.

When he meets Harper, who runs tabletop games at a local meetup, Jonas is initially rebuffed by Harper’s cold, disinterested exterior. But as he gets to know Harper through subsequent encounters, he learns Harper is trans, owns a used bookstore/hobby shop, and unfortunately shares an apartment with his ex-boyfriend.

Despite Jonas’s initial impression, Harper turns out to be kind and patient. As they spend more time together, Jonas’s feelings for Harper evolve into something deeper than friendship. As he starts to consider the future instead of existing from day to day, he finds that life is full of meaning and possibility despite being messy and unexpected.

You can pre-order COLLISION DAMAGE on Amazon for $2.99. (And unlike my past releases, this title will not be available for Kindle Unlimited.)

You can also check out the official playlist for COLLISION DAMAGE on Spotify.


This book is the first of many planned stories featuring trans men finding love. If you can’t wait, check out some of my recent speculative erotic shorts which all feature trans men:

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Two new books, lots of thoughts, and the future

Whoops, I had two books come out since my last post.

  • PRODIGY is a novel about a surly genius AI programmer who takes on a project to perfect a sex bot, which includes a wunderkind live-in assistant that he eventually falls for.
  • OF BONES & TWILIGHT is a novella full of rural magic and smut and cross-country travel. (AKA Elle imagines a story where RDR2 has more gay witches and beast men)

These might be the last books I self-pub for 2021 and I have some thoughts on that. Okay, a lot of thoughts.

I’m still pretty green to self-publishing, much less the queer writing community as a whole. Gotta say, self-publishing is absolutely terrifying! And I’m saying that as someone who can do everything from the ground up—the writing, of course, but the book design, cover, promotion attempts, etc.

I’ve never felt as vulnerable as I did when my first book released. I could see from the KDP reports that it was being read, that people had bought it, but when a few ratings trickled on Goodreads, I had that moment of “oh shit OH SHIT WHAT I AM I DOING I CAN’T HANDLE THIS.”

Thankfully that feeling has died down considerably, and I just wanted to talk about some of the things contributing to that, among other thoughts I have at this point in my writing process.

1) I set up my Twitter writing account in November 2020, right about the time I had done exactly enough research on self-publishing to say, “Shit, I can do this.” From there I just sort of binge-followed authors whose books I enjoyed or whatever suggestions Twitter threw at me.

Somewhere between my first book coming out in February and working on the next three that were scheduled to release by June, some priorities in my personal life began to shift. I started having a lot of inward questions about my gender presentation, which is in no small part due to the fact that my day job has had me working from home since mid-March 2020. I realized not having to put on business casual clothes, with the added pressure of also applying makeup, was actually a huge relief. That only contributed to further internal dialogues with myself—namely, I no longer felt comfortable being perceived as a woman, or feminine in any way. I’m convinced writing from male perspectives absolutely played a role in this mindset and that’s definitely a blog post for another day.

The realization that I was trans realigned me to start following more loudly queer writers. And in the midst of all that, I can say as of writing this that I feel like I’ve found a nice little corner of writer twitter that feels like “my folks.” This has skyrocketed my confidence in my writing. And now I’m eager to write more transmasc perspectives—out of personal desire and affirmation, as well as the need for more transmasc voices in the writing market.

2) I’ve mentioned on other posts about how releasing four books in the span of six months started with more of a clerical error on my part. But you know what? I fucking did it. When I load up my Amazon author page and see those four books next to each other, I feel a huge spectrum of emotions—pride, confidence, terror, elation.

But most of all, I feel relieved. Because I’ve spent the first half of 2021 hustling to meet these self-imposed deadlines and now I can take several steps back and breathe. I stand by the work I published, but there were several instances where I wished I had more time. Maybe as writers we never really shake the feeling that we always could have done more for a book, done better by a story, but the crunch absolutely didn’t help in that regard.

When I set my three WIPs up for pre-order, they were mostly fleshed out in how I wanted them to go. But I overestimated my ability to give appropriate focus to what I needed to. One example: NOCTURNE’S THRALL had more interior book design, and I wanted that for my other books, but there wasn’t much time to play around with that when it came down to it. It took all I had just to get them all formatted into EPUB in time for AMZN’s pre-order submission deadline.

There’s a reason people take years to write books—you need that breathing room.

And next time I am FOR REAL not submitting something to KDP until the draft is complete.

3) It took these four books for me to realize where I want to stand in this amorphous writing community. Trad pub doesn’t interest me at this time; I am simply having too much fun doing what I want, and I especially do not want trad pub to be a barrier to more trans voices in the market. Do I wish I had the marketing and promotional smarts to flip my books to a wider audience? Of course. But I also bask in any attention I do receive. Reviews trickling into AMZN and GR feel sincere. I have no idea how anyone finds my books outside of my Twitter followers, but it feels like I’m doing something right, even on a small scale.


Finally—I want to talk about the future! I of course have about twenty WIPs on deck, but I’m going to let them actually simmer this time around. (Note: twenty is 100% an exaggeration, but it is more than five and that feels like A Lot.)

I’m hoping to get back to reading more regularly and reviewing things that I thoroughly enjoy/wish I had written on this blog, because I find great merit in examining why I like things or why they click with me so well. I also have a mighty urge to support all my wonderful Twitter mutuals’ writing.

I also maybe kind of want to design book covers for other indie authors? It’s something I enjoy so much even though I am not professionally trained in graphic design.

I also want to work on posting more casual writing—be it something serialized, or fanfiction, or what-have-you. Because despite all this “needing to breathe” I need to do, I am a teensy bit addicted to that instant gratification of putting something out there and getting an immediate reaction.

But mostly I just want to continue settling into this feeling of community, and contributing positively in whatever way I can.

So uh, watch this space? I’m sure I’ll be getting into a multitude of shenanigans for the back half of 2021, and I’m so excited to share every bit!

Book Releases

ETHANOMICON – M/M Paranormal Romance – Coming April 16, 2021

I’m probably mega-late on making this post, but that’s the beauty of self-publishing: I do what I want and I get to it when I get to it.

My next book, ETHANOMICON, is coming out April 16, 2021. I had a lot of fun with this story, even with designing the cover, and I’m so utterly jazzed about sharing it.

Twentysomething Ethan encounters a mysterious stranger in the arcade of the bowling alley where he works. Turns out the man is no human, but a demon named Pez, who enjoys vintage arcade games, breakfast food, and making Ethan’s head spin whenever he’s nearby. Even with Pez’s intricate tattoos and enchanting presence, demons are probably not great boyfriend material, right? So why can’t Ethan stay away, despite being warned that his involvement with Pez will bring destruction to the mortal plane?

This book is a m/m dark paranormal romance with a HEA. Full content warnings can be found inside.

Speaking of fun, I thought this time around I’d give a shot to some of those excerpt images I’ve seen folks posting. These were super enjoyable for me to make, since I’m always itching to stretch my Photoshop muscles but feel like I can only create so many book covers.

I can’t wait for y’all to meet Pez and Ethan. April 16th is right around the corner!

Preorder on Amazon (Available for Kindle Unlimited)

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Listen to an audio sneak peak of Nocturne’s Thrall!

With the release of Nocturne’s Thrall right around the corner, I thought I’d dust off the old “bought this to make a podcast that never happened” microphone to record an excerpt from the first chapter. You can find the excerpt linked below on YouTube:

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Nocturne’s Thrall – M/M Vampire Romance – Coming February 1, 2021

Introducing Nocturne’s Thrall, a breakout m/m erotic romance set in Chicago, featuring vampires, fancy food, and good wine. Available on Amazon & Kindle Unlimited 2/1/2021!

Brokenhearted aspiring chef Javi del Toro starts a promising new position at Nocturne, a high-end restaurant only open at night. He falls in love with everything about the job—except for Nocturne’s owner, the cold, disinterested Adrien Volt. Javi is determined to win Adrien’s approval but quickly realizes his goals may be about more than just professional validation from his boss.

Adrien Volt hides in plain sight as a member of Chicago’s vampire collective. He devotes himself fully to running his business and has little personal life to speak of. But then the new hire in his restaurant catches his eye, and Adrien is drawn to Javi’s unbridled passion and natural talent in the kitchen. When Adrien discovers something sinister is lurking in Javi’s past, he’s suddenly compelled to do everything in his power to keep Javi safe.

As Javi and Adrien stumble through their feelings and learn to trust each other, their lives clash and overlap in dangerous ways, forcing both human and vampire to decide what it will take for them to be together.

Preorder on Amazon (Available for Kindle Unlimited)